Renewed

Life is one wild ride. A year ago, I sat in the dark wishing I was gone. I was hopeless. Spiritually I was broken. I kept asking the same question over and over. Why me?

A year later, I am truly the most joyful I have ever been. There are still rough days. Before, with my shadowed view on life, I couldn’t see past the storm. I would shut down and hole up in my room. I shut those who cared the most about me out. Now, I see the rainbow at the end of the storm. I reach out when I know that I am not okay. Instead of criticizing my flaws, I try to look the other way and keep going.

I am surrounded by the best of friends and family. They constantly check in even if I don’t see them regularly.

These days, my biggest challenge is anxiety. The anxiety fuels self doubt, but I refuse to let it win.

I left this blog about a year ago because I doubted my creativity. I started to believe that my creativity was only fueled by my hurt. I am sitting here writing this with gratitude and joy in my heart. This is such a cool moment for me, having renewed creativity founded in joy. I know that there will still be rough days, however, I vow to be like a palm tree holding firm to my roots in Christ through the storms that life throws my way.